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Diary

this page is a sort of online diary where i share my thoughts, feelings and interests... be warned that i will talk about topics that may trigger some people like self harm and other mental illness related things... this is in no way intended to romanticise these issues... it's only an outlet for me to talk about my problems

08 May 2022

Getting into Kancolle again

Ohhh... my...

ive been playing Kancolle again for this past few days...
i know this game is addicting...

you can play it forever basically...
there is no resources limit... like the other games...

well you can runs out the resources...
but i never actually runs out...

i didnt finish event world or do large sortie...
i just get what i needed...

this game is awesome... i love it...
ive been playing it since the flash game era...
its amazing how this game improved over time...


ive been leveling my ship non stop this few days...
mainly my DE ship...

i only have 4 DE ship...
its all low level...

i really struggle with submarine enemy...
thats why i need to leveling my DE...
its much more easier to get Opening ASW with DE ship...
i believe you only need 60+ ASW ...
while DD and CL need 100+ ASW....

leveling DE really pain in the back...
i didnt have any good OASW ship...
i cant leveling in world 7...

instead i leveling in world 1-5
the exp are really low there...
but if i do complete the boss node...
its actually not a bad farm site...

doing this leveling really drain my fuel...
i use more than i can regenerate...
but i still have a lot...so its not a big problem...

well... its problem for future me...
if i want to do multiple heavy ship sortie...

01 May 2022

Get back to drwaing

ahh...
its feels good after you take break
from something you always do...

yes... im taking some break from drawing...
well not full break...i still do my monthly commision
i still need the money lol...

i didnt work on any personal project...
for about a 3 month i guess...
i used that time to do mostly programming...

heck i had a lot of fun...
i learn new cool stuff...
new community... new framework...
and lot of cool stupid project im working on...

ill definitely gonna write all my finding to this weblog soon
but now im in the middle of reformating some of
this website structure... just to make it easy
to both navigate and develop in the future...
so i didnt write it now...


right... today topic is not about programming
its time i get back to drawing...
i started back my daily upload again...

of course if you want to see it...
add me as a friend in facebook...
i rarely upload my art content to any other site than facebook

thats remind me...
did i put any of my social in this website??
i guess i didnt lol...well whatever...

anyway... i start by drawing a simple
character from game that i really love...
yup.. rune factory...to be precises Amber...

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to be honest... doesnt look good at all...
i didnt really like it...

soo.. in the same day... draw Amber again...
but this time i really put my soul into it...

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thats what im talking about...
its much more better now that i get used to the pentab again...
im feeling really hype right now...
so again... still in the same day...
i did it again...

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welp... looks like im out of stamina...
im so tired in the end of that day...
then i decided to stop there....

ok...
next day...
i learn my lesson...
im still recovering my skill again...
this time lets dont over doing it again...

lets draw my own character instead...

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yess... simple line...
not really smooth line but ok...
just to train my hand again...
and most important... i didnt do coloring lol...
im not lazy.. ok... its too maintain my stamina...
while recovering my skill...

my coloring is not that great anyway...
im always focusing on lining instead of color...

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my character again but this time her old design...
it turn out really well...
i like it...

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still same character but this time its her valkyrie mode...

and last...

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its Neive... a gender bend version of my friend lol...

29 Apr 2022

Another massive change

well... well.. well...
looks like i switch back using hugo lol...

its not that i dislike my own site generator...
im also didnt dislike hugo anymore...

idk why...
but... after creating my own site generator
i realized... there is a lot todo...

i spent more time improving my site generator
than working on my own site...

when i first start creating my own site generator...
i did that because i didnt like how hugo handle the template...

so i create my own...
then i have full control of how everything works

it was amazing... but i run into issue...
i havevnt properly implement cache system...

so everytime there is change... it need some time to render...
and my site gen really take a long time to generate full site...
its not really optimized for live reloading...
which is very essential for webdev in my opinion...

and at this time im also start understand
why hugo handle template the way it is...

so made a decision...
i want to switch back to hugo...
and i did... it really easy to migrate all my content to hugo...
since my site generator basically using same format as hugo
i took lot of hugo feature as inspiration...

it didnt took very long time... just some rename and small tweak
im also figured out some problem i had
when using hugo back then...

i dont know what im going to do with my site generator...
probably just abandoned it....

i hope i didnt need to change to another site generator...
im tired... i just want to make website... write stuff
and do whatever i like...

23 Jan 2022

Melody's Note #1

  • Giving lot of people hope is really amazing... but also terrifying...
  • it keep happening...an hour became a day... a day became a week...it keep going...
  • trap in the past...looking for and old gems
  • such a wonderful moment... we just having fun all day

22 Jan 2022

Its been a year already

ugh...
its been a year already...
that means i need to paid the backend server... ouch...

seriously tho...
i didnt expect ill keep this website project alive for a year...
i know its still not finished yet...
there is still lot of placeholder texts and images...

but you see... i rarely continue my project any further like this one...
usually i just abandon the project and move to other cool stuff that i found...

i really love how this website...
im gonna keep continue working on this website...

23 Dec 2021

git push force my problem away

i usually put all my random project in a single repo
its called random-crap ...
pretty unique name right...

it kinda become really bloated now...
sometimes i forgot to gitignore a large temp file...
and it end up lost deep inside commit

that big file cause the repo become really big in size...
and im to lazy to filter that file to reduce the size...

why not just git push force everything and start from zero
i mean... this is just a random-crap after all...

i didnt really need to store old commit...
i just want quickly backup my random crap...

so that what i did...
i remove .git folder... re init git...
and just force push my problem away...

i already clean up all the junk...
so its much more managable now...

14 Dec 2021

Feeling bit sick

ugh...
i dont feel well this few days...

my stomach hurt sometimes...
even yesterday i almost vomit...

i bought my fav snack few days ago...
it is just a cookie snack

it taste bit different than usual...
the expired date is March 2022...
so i should be fine... right?

but it still taste bit different....
after eating that snack...
the next day my stomach start hurt...

the cookie might be the cause...
im pretty sure...

12 Dec 2021

Take a break

Oh hi...

sorry its been a while since my last post...
lot of things happend...

im also havent start working on the chatbox too...

ok last week i was planning to work on chatbox...
i already make the base...

then the next day...on december first
i realized... i dont have money left...
like im really broke...

my internet to will run out at 4th dec...
i freak out...

then i just post a emergency public art commission...
i didnt do public commision on november...
usually i do open at least once in a month...

luckily i got 4 client with total of 6 character...
that really solve my money issue for a while...

i renew my internet bill and also bought a SSD...
yess.. ssd... i guess its time already...

i bought a ssd and it arrive yesterday...
this is my first ever ssd...

i really freak out when its arrive...
because it is like really lightweight...
i though it was a fake lmao....

i even ask it to some of my friends to confirm it lmao...

but yeah... that ssd run really well on my machine...
i install my linux live persistence into it...
and now it became my main OS....

after doing art commision i just have fun doing some programming stuff
i get back to nds homebrew again...

i improve my bad apple port...
last time i only got it running for 30fps...
now i tried to run it on 60fps...

it is completely failure...
there is some glitchy...
but it run...
im gonna make dedicated post to explain that later....

anyway... im tired now....
im gonna take some break from working on new stuff for this website...
that mean the chatbox still need to be delayed....

i want to do some simple stuff on this end of the year....
im gonna get back on cool stuff next year...

im also need to start think what i want to do next year...

28 Nov 2021

Working on The Chatbox

yess... ive been waiting for this...

i do bunch of optimization on the build process...
just to prepare for working on chatbox...

but...
before i get into that...

let me write things i been doing a few days agoo...
its not a really productive days...
but it still a progress...

ok... where i should start...

lets start from art...
i still doing the same things as before...
relearn and try different technique...
this time im practice on front view head...

its kinda tricky... i still cant get consistent look...
still struggle on the eyes placement...
but its getting better...
im still gonna grind more on front view head...

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its kinda hard because i try to use generic anime looking style now...
instead of my style that i usually use...

give me another few days...
and i should be ready to start open commission for that style...
its been a while i havent open public commission...

ok next... on the website itself...
well kinda... its actually the build process

its far more optimized now...
i utilize cache... make different task for dev and productive mode...
and lot of other minor changes...

i used really old laptop
previously i need to wait like 5-10sec just to modify small text
its really slow and painful...

now it just take a couple second... even ms sometimes...
depend on how complex is the page

i also use browser-sync for live reload now...
it is far more easier to setup...


there is still a few feature that i havent optimize it yet...
mainly is the global mustache config...

this config hold all the global variable and function for mustache...
mustache is the template engine that i used...

a page... like this weblog page for example...
its come in a raw mustache file...
which then need to be process by the mustache....

mustache replace any variable/function with an actual value...
some function is kinda heavy and blocking...

the most heavy function right now is the image manipulation...
i used this a lot to resize image on the fly....

i used npm package called Jimp
it is slow af... and it also blocking...
i think its can be used async but im not sure... i forgot...

how this function work basically like this...
i input image path with some value to change, width for example
then this function process the image and return the new resized path...

that is what i need... a resized path...
if i can just return the resized path immediately...
and just run the image process in the parallel...
that sure gonna change a lot...

but that a problem for future me...
i already do lot of optimization, kinda bored...
present me right now wanna work on chatbox instead....


ok the chatbox...
i built a chatbox before... but it just really simple and barebone
im still scared because im not really sure if i can make it
safe and secure... plus im gonna use php...
the language that i rally hate...

you know... you cant just trust internet that way...
i need to do lot of research on security first...

i mean i already know some basic stuff...
but i would take any precaution that available...

ok enough for those backend nonsense....
lets start design some layout...
the placeholder box you see on the bottom right
is where im gonna put the chatbox...

this gonna be chatbox without profile...
so anyone can straight send chat

there will be no name input...
anonymous chat only...link also not allowed....
maybe im gonna allow neocities subdomain only...

im doing this because i didnt want to log any private information...
im not really confident with my programming skill...
it could be stolen... who know...

there is also a choice to use an existing service...
but nah... i want to make my own...

this is the layout that i came up with...

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there gonna be some feature for this chatbox...
the green circle is the avatar..
when clicked... it will randomly generated avatar...
the blue one is sticker...this will open small popup
and the yellow is scroll down...
new message will appear on the bottom...
so when user scroll up this button will show up for quick access

there is also bubble chat that represent the chat itself...
the avatar current user chat will show up on the right side...
while other avatar chat will show on the left side...

nothing special..
just like the generic chat layout....

i didnt quite like the layout
so this might change later...

i mean it still sketch... who know...
maybe im gonna like it when its done...

but now im happy to officially start working
on this chatbox feature....


oh yeah...
this bit hilarious.. but
also i broke my mouse yesterday...

the left click are completely broken....
sometime it click.. sometime doesn't...
sometime it even double click...

the most annoying thing is when dragging
and it just cancel in between...

this is old cheap votre mouse...
yeah really cheap mouse...
it cost Rp.10.000 or under $1 lmaoo....

i got this mouse free from buying standard cheap keyboard...
its been i dunno 2 year i guess...

i order new mouse... bit better...
logitech b100... yeah i know another cheap one...
but it much better than this small votre lmaoo..
i read some feedback and this mouse is awesome...
it should be arrive tomorrow.... cant wait...

i hate using trackpad... so i still use this votre mouse..
but i use the trackpad for left click....

such a wierd control... but it works....

26 Nov 2021

Redirect my domain to neocities

I have my own webhost and domain...
its is really cheap and powerful

i rent it around Rp.60.000/Year
or around $4.20/year...

i got full unlimited bandwith...
but only 256mb storage...
which is more than enough for my small website

its really cheap... and this webhost
allow me to use php which i can use to make
some simple backend...

the only problem is it doesnt include
any deployment feature... not even ssh access...

its kinda tricky to setup auto deploy
with only ftp transfer...

then i found about neocities...
it got huge community which is great
but it only host static site...

i also need to pay $5/month to use my own domain
in neocities... i cant pay that much...

so for this past few month i just use
my webhost as a main website...
and neocities for a mirror...

my webhost location is in Indonesia...
this is where i lived... it load much faster
than neocities...

now i at the point where i want to implement
some web analytics service....

this is gonna be problem since i got two
different website...

its now time to make decision...
which website should i use for my analytics...
i can add both but i just gonna make things difficult

after some thinking...

i think im gonna use neocities as the main website instead...

it got fast cdn for multiple country... have more storage...
and a huge community... it also got simple web statistic built in...

im gonna still keep my webhost to host all the backend stuff...
and use neocities as the frontend...

as for the domain melody.my.id ... im gonna redirect all
traffic to the neocities domain...

i think its is a good decision...