Hi there.... this site is still under construction so some of the pages are still missing and nothing is final

Diary

this page is a sort of online diary where i share my thoughts, feelings and interests... be warned that i will talk about topics that may trigger some people like self harm and other mental illness related things... this is in no way intended to romanticise these issues... it's only an outlet for me to talk about my problems

21 Aug 2022

you know what...
when i was a kid...
i had this silly dream i want to achieve...

after i grow up...
i realized how hard it is to achieve that dream...
so i gave up...

long time has passed since then...
im now scrolling on my old folder

a folder where i save all my silly little dream...
its kinda nostalgic...

i dont know... looking at those old files
my heart tell me to give it another chance...

but im still not sure...
i maybe just end up wasting lot of time again...

haha...

i dont know what wrong with me...
i always run from anything...
even my own dream...

18 Aug 2022

i dont know...
lately...
ive been trying to get out from my comfort zone....

and just like that never again meme...

i guess im failed...
never again...
im tired...

i dont know anymore...
where i should get help...
someone pls... help me...
im completly lost...

i dont know anymore...

...

this morning...
i just didnt want to think about it anymore...

act like nothing happend...
do nothing...
i dont know...

how long i can survive like this...
i might going insane...
who knows...

10 Aug 2022

my handmade hero journey

i found this (https://handmadehero.org/)[https://handmadehero.org/] ...
i was thinking to watch this series a long time ago....

but my C++ skill arent that great at that time...

ive been using c++ for most of the time now...
i really love it...and i understand how C works now...

and now i guess its time to start watching the series...
i been watching the first 5 intro videos...
im surprised i can follow along...

its mean maybe i can also follow the main series which ill be doing after wrting this diary

08 Aug 2022

wtf wrong with you clangd

ive been using windows again for programming...
usually i used linux for programming
and windows for drawing...

its kinda annoying when i need to do both
so i tried to using windows to programming...

installing build tools in windows is kinda tricky...
because there are lots of option...
there is a mysy2, cygwin, or just plain mingw64...
ofc clang llvm too...
ohh right there you can also use wsl too...

using standalone mingw is my goto option...
because its simple and i didint need seperate console
like those mysy and cygwin nonsense...

i also install clang llvm because i need clangd...
for some reason clangd on windows really wierd...

you see... in linux its easy...
you just install build essentials and clangd... done...
they work as intended...

but not in windows...
here... this mf clangd...
refused to use mingw standar header...

like i dont even know anymore...
i tried everything... nothing works...
i look all over the internet for solution
nothing works....

it just stupid...
"cannot find iostream" like bruh...
and no... i dont wont to install mvsc

bruh...

...

that make me realized something...
maybe...

maybe its not the clangd that broken...
maybe its my mingw? ...

remember when i said there is multiple ways
to install build tool in windows...

yeah... maybe there is specific
mingw that work with clangd perhaps?

and thats when i found this website...
https://winlibs.com/

bruh... they packaged mingw and clang together...
i didnt know that existed...

anyway i tried that...

and guess what...
it fucking works...

holyshit...
how many hours did i lose...

08 Aug 2022

merge to main

i know its bit a rush...

there is still lots of placeholder images in Diary...
even the Documents files are totally mess...

but at this point i already changed lots of things...
last time i update the main branch was like... 3 month ago...

the current website also completely different now...

i no longer use gulp to build my js...
resulting some of bugs in my code...
i decided to just comment that out and fix it later...

the same goes to document files...
im just put them at draft mode for now...
this make them unlisted in the page...

and somehow i didnt like the old Me page...
and i just comment all the content and gray out the button...

ohh man... so much todo...
i already spent too much time working on the website this couple days...

im just gonna push it to master branch...
and take a break a moment...

05 Aug 2022

my phone got softbrick

A few days ago my phone got softbrick...
i cant boot the system...
im such a dumb...

this all started when i tried to upgrade magisk...

i always use old magisk because...
its work perfectly on my phone...
one day i tried to upgrade the manager because why not...

inside magisk there are two component...
the manager and the magisk itself...

the one i tried to upgrade is the manager...
after i finish installing the newer version...

the magisk also got newer version available...
ofc i tried to upgrade that too...

but in the middle of the process it got some wierd warning...
and ask me to restart the phone...

soo i did...
but my phone cant boot... it stuck...
yup i guess the process failed somehow?...

anyway its fix now... i tried to flash the phone
and its working again...
luckly no important file are missing...

just for a lesson... dont just upgrade anything lol...
im happy as long as its work...

04 Aug 2022

Grid Is My New Bestfriend

oh my god...
why didnt learn this much sooner...

i really like grid now...
its soo much easy now to create column and row...

usually i use flex display to do that...
i didnt know grid exist... well i do...
but i just assume grid is similar like table... but no...
its much better...

friendship ended with flex display...
grid is now my new best friend...

03 Aug 2022

New Website Layout Lesgoo

yooo...
guess what...
finally i decided to change my melody gigant hotsprings design...
the last design really cute... but its limited...
its time to make a change...

i was planning to do responsive modern looking one...
i use lot of design from the old v1.0 ...
but with a generic 3 column layout...
the melody gigant hotsprings v3.0 has born...

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but after creating the prototype... its feel like... not a personal web anymore...
its cute but... no.. i dont like it anymore lol...
it might be good for another project maybe...
but for now im just gonna put that on this document...


i really like the v2.0 wavy border...
well... im just gonna improve v2.0 then...
and call it v2.1...

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lets see...
in v2.0 the background is in single big image...
and i only have one big single box in the middle

ok lets fix that...

since i cant create the border procedurally...
it just gonna be a static in size...
also i dont really care about responsive...
so thats not a problem...


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instead of single page now all box is individual image...
thats mean i can put it in any order i like...

i also increase the width too...

for the content...
i decided to make it all inside a scrollable div like this...

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all of my weblog now rename into big single diary
no more single page for every post...

i also create document where i make unusual post that didnt fit in diary...
much like shrine in v2.0
oh i also put the old content there too...

i remove the guestbook and chatbox for now...
since the backend are gone... and i havent create another one...
i might use another service instead of make my own this time....

overall i really like this design...
i cant wait to push the design to main branch...

02 Aug 2022

Stupid Webhost Provider

hi there...
its been a while...

a lot of things have happened...
like a LOT...

i havent update my web for a very long time...
my last post was 3 month ago...

ah.. yess... 3 months ago
that was the time where my backend stuff got completely gone...
its not my fault.. its my stupid webhost who did it...

you see...
one day i got this email from my webhost provider...
they said they wanted do some server migration...
so the service might be down to 2x24 max...

thats fine... they did that in the past too...
i have no problem...

so i wait...

one day passed...

my website is still down...
ok... they might need more time...
thats fine...

another day passed...

i check in the morning...
oh and my website is back up...
but... there is something weird...

why is it showing the default page...
by default i mean default template like whenever you bought a webhost for the first time...

ok... thats weird... really weird...
lets check the admin panel...

oh wow... why is my disk usage so low...

and yess... it really happened...

my data is gone... all of them...
all database... all files...

for some reason my account got reset...

i didnt have any backup for all my backend and database stuff...
i only have this frontend web which i store on github... thats it....

idk what todo... i wait for another two days after that...
hoping that they would fix that... but no its still not fixed...

i contact them via support email...
they said the migration failed... and some data got lost...
tf... the only compensation i got is 3 month expansion...

i dont want expansion i want my data back...
there is nothing they can do about that... like bruh...

at least say that we should create backup first when they want to do the server migration...
they didnt mention any possibility that data might get lost in the first email...

it was a really tough time...
i took me like a month to get over that...

09 May 2022

Hosting my own analytic

i personally didnt like analytic
google analytic to be more precise
its too bloated for me...

i didnt need that much...
i just need a really basic...
im talking about page visitor...
just that is more than enough...

neocities already have built in page stats...
but its too simple...
its only show page visitor for a whole site...

i want to see individual page stats...
thats why i want to host my own analytic


i found lot of cool and simple open source web analytic...
but i didnt have lot of choices...

i only have really small vps...
i use that for my micro tools...
i didnt have enough resource to host web analytic there...

but i do have shared hosting...
i can use any of php based web analytic...
then i found Open Web Analytic